Soon, too soon actually our tiny Mila will quickly turn three months old. It is insane to think that she has blessed us for three months already! I feel as though we just brought her home from the hospital a few days ago. Over the past three months the four of us have been learning each other. What works and what definitely doesn't. Mila and I spend nearly every hour together. My body has now fully adapted to Mila's needs and we work in tandem through out the day. She gets to eat, then I get to work, she needs to be held, I work while I hold her. It has become a beautiful routine where I sometimes cry because my heart loves her so much. I take a look at us and think, I just love this so much. I love being a mother so much. I take a look at us and think, my children and I make quite the trio.
Life has taken a turn for the busy as I am working hard on creating for Baby Boy Bakery Shop and other projects I can't wait to share soon! Some mornings I get carried away with email, writing and recipe making. Mila, bless her is along for the ride most days. I am so grateful she enjoys being worn, because some afternoons she will nap for hours while I try and get things done. However, more often than not Mila and I spend days together where nothing gets done but nursing and Netflix. Or we go for long walks with friends. All that intertwined with a few visits to Disneyland with big brother.
Guilt rears it's ugly head and makes me feel as though I need to work harder, faster. But really, I need to relish in these moments I have with Mila as she gets ready to celebrate being three months! Three months already?! There is a quote in my baby book that says "All I did today was hug and kiss my baby. And that is ok." I wrote that while pregnant with Mila and thought "Yes!" that is so true. It is totally OK to take a day or two to do absolutely nothing but love on your children. I would give anything to just have one of those days with Ryan once again. If not a day then a few hours, one hour . . . twenty minutes to just sit on the floor and play Cars.
So often we spread ourselves thin with the intention of greatness. We set goals and write "to-do" lists. Many times I jam through our day only to find it is bed time again. I want to make a conscious effort to set aside times through out the day that are dedicated to my children. Mila is changing everyday and I want to soak it all up. I am trying my hardest to memorize her sounds, her skin even her smells (even the not so good smells). I want to take things real slow. Really slow, since life and all its happenings are so quick!
We are coming up on three months with this tiny beauty. I am sitting here thinking, how did that happen so fast? It all happens so fast!
I hope you take a few hours or a day if you can this week and dedicate it to your babies. What are your favorite things to do with your children?
Photos by Kelsea Holder Photography
Make-Up & Hair by Amanda Olson